Title: Take Me Far Away

Genre: Attempted angst. Slight NCS

Rating: NC-17

Pairings: Matsumiya, Ohmiya

Summary: Nino thinks about his regrets.

Disclaimer: I don’t own Arashi. Though they do own me.

 

A/N: Written out of guilt, in under an hour continuously and without editing thus crappy, and for

arashi_pandesal who owns the idea and drove me crazy with it. 

 

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Ao no hikari ni, yurenagara kaita tegami sotto…

 
I silently closed my eyes as it started, letting myself get lost into his voice again as he began to rehearse on the stage above me. Though one would think that where I am was just dark and stuffy, I myself could’ve never asked for anything better.

 It all started when I first heard this song of his. I couldn’t stop listening. Listening to that tormenting voice that always managed to make me hit some sort of trance. Thankfully I’m always able to hide it from the four of them. I would not want them to see this particular weakness of mine, this weakness that he induces me in…

 I hid myself here in this darkness, silently hoping…hoping that soon it will be over and that we’ll be back to our… my true merry self again. Because from what I see, he doesn’t even seem to be affected by that ‘break-up’ of ours that I proposed to do. I did it because I was jealous. Jealous of him and that brat who calls Oh-cha—Ohno as his idol. I did it as a plan to see if he’ll miss me even more and come running back to my arms, and all hurt and mistakes will be forgiven and forgotten then.

How wrong I was.

Now it’s only me who was suffering this pain. Ever since we had that talk, I made myself scarce in front of him, and put up a front that I felt lesser care for him even as a friend. Each time that he’ll ask for my presence I would decline and say that I was doing something else, when deep inside I felt this spark of joy and hope growing little by little whenever he reached for me. I also showed the others how I wouldn’t listen to this song, making an excuse to go out of the room or to simply choose the next track because it was too boring.

As the days passed I felt colder and colder toward him. No longer would I feel that jolt I relished whenever he talked to me. No longer did I hear him calling my name in a sing-song voice, saying ‘Nino chyaaan~’ with that cute little pout of his. No longer would I see him giving me uneasy glances whenever he talked to Chinen through the phone right in front of me. Heh. It’d serve him right if he’d be branded as a pedophile for hanging out too much with that brat and get arrested. 

But even then, I would be there for him, never leaving his side. Something I wouldn’t do just for anyone, but only for him…

 Shirusu, omoi wo zenbu kanjiteru…

 
As I continued to get lost in the song, I felt myself growing hard. It was one of the skeletons in my closet, fantasizing about him with just listening to his voice. I could barely control myself when I’m around him, but proud that I do so. Otherwise, it would mean disaster for Arashi if I started dry-humping him on stage. Conversely it would just get us more fans, and then again I’d use that as an excuse for our ‘Ohmiya SK’ act. 

I put my hand inside my jeans and start to touch myself, throwing my head back and opening my mouth into a silent gasp. Through it all I never noticed the figure behind me, watching me the whole time. My eyes shot open when another hand deftly slid itself along with mine, pushing and stroking roughly as I felt teeth sinking into my nape.

“Nngh... W-Who---?!”
 

Hitomi tojireba, azayaka ni sunda kioku sotto…

My words turned into mumbles as another hand covered my mouth, one of the fingers having a skull ring on it. In that moment, my aggressor whispered into my ears… 

“Shh… It’s just me Nino…”

 

Awai kisetsu ni, tsutsumareru you na kaori kitto… 
 

It was none other than Jun. But even knowing so, my panic didn’t settle one bit. I felt my sweat turn cold knowing that he saw me touching myself, and while listening to Ohno sing at that. For a fraction of a second fear flashed in my eyes, and it only grew as I saw a grin forming on his face. He took his hand off my mouth, and I used that chance to try and scare him off. 

“I-It’s not what it looks! And what do you think you’re---mmmph!?!”

He covered my mouth again and this time used harder force, to such that I felt his hand tremble with it. 

He glared at me and bared his teeth. “Shut up or I’m going to slam your head on the wall.”

Jun was a lot of things. Prissy, temperamental, big-headed… But one thing that he wasn’t was to be violent to us. Sure, he smacked around Ohno and Aiba a few times, but he never tried to hurt us in a threatening way.
 

Toki no, kanaderu neiro shinjiteru… fukaku mune ni hibiku
 

But why was he doing this to me?
 

Tsutaetakute nando mo… kimi no kokoro utsusu

 
Reading the surprise my eyes showed, he spoke.

“Look Nino. I am going to fuck you and I am not going to let you get away. I’ve waited too long…” 

Fuck me? Logic and reasoning for this quickly escaped me and I felt anger rising up. What makes him think I’d let him fuck me?

“Because I am going to tell Ohno this sick little fetish of yours.” 

I struggled even more and threateningly tightened my grip on the hand on my mouth.

“And tell him how desperate you still are for him.”
 

Ai wo tsunaideru saihate ni…  eien wa umareteku
 

With that I felt myself paralyze. How did he know? He couldn’t possibly know. I tried so hard to hide it from everyone. They’re the last people I’d want to take this kind of embarrassment and rejection from. I slowly let go of his hand, and he took it off my mouth as I looked at him with shocked eyes.

“You think I didn’t know?” He laughed. “I would’ve believed it, if I didn’t know how needy you are of him. I actually felt sad to think that you’d be so desperate.”

I…what…

“I also heard you sob in your apartment as you listened to his song. What happened to ‘it’s too boring?’”
 

Nagare nagare yuku senritsu ni… toikaketa

 
 “You…You did??” I felt my heart beat faster and felt worse as he continued to stroke my manhood back to life.

 “So unless you want to see disgust on his face, I suggest you do as I say. It’ll be less painful that way.”

I reluctantly moved to his will, turning me around to face him and laying me flat on the large box I was sitting on. Invasive arms roamed around my body as he lifted my shirt up. 

“That’s a good boy…”

All that I could do was look away and clench my eyes shut, in futile effort to stop my tears from spilling.

Each inch he pulled my boxers down made more tears streak down the side of my face. It was so embarrassing, being used like this…

And yet, as he pressed himself on top of me I felt myself grow harder.

“You little slut…” 

He noticed as I feared. It had been a long time since Ohno and I had sex, and since then I wasn’t able to please myself. Not until earlier had I tried to gain release. Maybe that’s why this was stimulating me… But I shouldn’t be using that as an excuse. He moved on to nibble my earlobe, making me gasp and fully grow hard.

“So that’s the trick…” he said with a breathy voice. With that he stood back up and placed himself between my legs, pulling one up and pressing a finger in, choking a whimper while he did so.

“Heh…it’s amazing you’re still this tight even with doing it so much with that guy.” He put in another finger and shoved them in and out of me, and I was trying my best to keep myself still.
 

Doko ni itemo  Donna toki demo

He grabbed my manhood and stroked it gently as he positioned himself in front of my entrance. I can’t believe I’m letting him do this to me…

Ohno…I’m so sorry…

Pain shot through my whole body as I arched up, not successful with holding down a sudden yelp, earning my thigh a hard slap. 

“Sorry?” He started to thrust slowly as he looked at me with menacing eyes.

“It’s not ‘sorry’ Nino. The guy obviously doesn’t love you anymore.” As he spoke, his pace got rougher and faster, and I try not to moan from the pleasure of it. I reached out one hand to stop his from stroking me, but he only slapped it away.
 

Itsumade mo---
 

I felt disgusted at myself for feeling good from what he was doing. Disgusted that Jun had no moral compass to use me like this. Disgusted that… the person I love was just above us, singing and dancing his heart out for the band and for the fans.
 

Hakanai jounetsu no kage wasuretaku wa, nai
 

Jun’s thrusts were getting more erratic and I could hear his breaths getting frantic, and I could feel myself close to release.

 

Shirusu, omoi wo zenbu kanjiteru…

I’m sorry I got so possessive of you Oh-chan…
 

Tsuyoku mune no oku ni…

 
I’m sorry I got too jealous of that kid when I had no reason to…

 

Tsutaetakute, nandomo… Kaita kotoba dake wa

 
I’m sorry I never told you how much I love you… 

I hope you can still forgive me after this.

“Aaah Nino…” 

He hit something inside me and I saw white, something so good that I finally reached climax as it shot across my bare chest. From the corner of my eye I saw him throw back his head in pleasure, spilling his seed inside me.

I never felt so filthy in my life… 

“Go clean yourself up before someone sees you.”

And with that, he left. Doing as he said, I dully wiped myself with a stray towel nearby and put on my pants back, hearing the final sounds of the song. Anger and sadness overwhelmed me as I sank behind the box and buried my head in my hands, sobbing… 

As I asked.
 

Tell me why, take me far away…

Tags: arashi, ohmiya
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Current Mood: cranky
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